hmmm...what am i gonna do again?

ever since i got pregnant, i've been forewarned that (1) i will lose my sense of balance, and (2) i will soon be forgetful. and boy, has warning #2 taken effect.

i open my google page and as soon as i attempt to type, i immediately forget what i was supposed to search for. just yesterday, i went down the escalator then i asked myself, "what am i going down for again?" grrr...it just gets so frustrating!

as i've read in 'What to Expect When You're Expecting,' pregnant women become absentminded more and more as the pregnancy progresses. oh well, since i can't list down everything i want to do, i might as well deal with it, hoping it won't get worse. hihi.

yes, i'm still alive

after 2 years and 2 months, i have successfully reclaimed my blog. i have no idea what happened, one day i just could not log in. anyway, since i missed all the blog-worthy posts during my 'sabbatical,' i'll just recount the more important events...

2007
hmmm...2007. got engaged in june of 2007. the mr.king and i spent our long weekend in Cebu. the 'proposal dinner' was in Shangri-la Mactan's Cowrie Cove: very, very romantic. i can't say i didn't expect the proposal, though, but it's always a fun little story to recount. i might just write about it when i have the free time.

so after every engagement comes the hectic wedding planning. and i guess that's how the rest of the year came to pass. i was my very own wedding planner and my OC-ness had never been put to the test until that phase in my life. :)

2008
got married on my birthday (February 15) so that forgetting the anniversary will hopefully never be an issue. haha. of course, that's not the real reason. but if you ask me what is, i probably won't be able to give a straight answer. i think i just like my birthday very much. haha.

the wedding was, to us, as solemn and as intimate as we had wanted it to be. the reception was very simple and the food was overflowing! the only downside, personally, was that i got my period a few minutes before i had to wear my wedding gown. can you believe that? haaaay...i guess that's better than getting it as you step out of the bridal car. hehe. :)

so after the wedding, we headed to Bangkok, Thailand for some much needed R&R. a month and a half later, we headed of to the US for a longer vacay. we went to LA, San Diego, San Francisco, Dallas, Portland, and Seattle. and apparently, i was already pregnant at the time, i just didn't know it! we were in Dallas when i finally took the pregnancy test, and the day after, as my luck would have it, i got dapa in the brick roads of Texas. tsk, tsk, tsk...

so now, i'm 6 months pregnant and i sometimes can't believe that soon there'll be a little one in the house. i mean, i've always been fond of kids and i've always been fascinated with pregnant women. in fact, when i was younger, i'd be caught stuffing my shirt with a pillow just so i can imagine myself being pregnant. and now i don't have to pretend anymore! there's definitely a linebacker inside my tummy!

2008 is really a year of good life changes for me. i got married, got pregnant, got to travel for a much longer time frame than the usual...ahhh...the life. never mind if i had to be on bedrest for 3 weeks with no DSL and no helper (that episode deserves a separate post). things really do turn out well in the end. and who knows, maybe i just might give birth in 2008 (forget the Jan 2 due date).

and in 2009, when February 15 comes, i'll be celebrating my birthday and my husband and i will be celebrating our anniversary. hmmm...we might just have the little one baptized on February 15, too. :)

TGIF

what can i say, time does fly fast. i spent tuesday and wednesday in UN for a training then yesterday, i did a few things in preparation for our Bataan trip tomorrow. but then, if we'll only be given 15 minutes to talk, then i don't think the trip will push through.

anyway, there's really not much to blog about except for the very mundane things i do. like after work yesterday, i went to the gym donning my new workout top. i so hate the african dance in body jam. i mean, do we really have to? this whole body jam 37 is the most tiring i've ever attended. i swear, i end up with buckets of perspiration. maybe it's all the jumping, spinning, turning, and i-don't-know-what-else. oh well, at least it really is calorie-burning, huh?

when i got home last night, i watched the semifinal match between sharapova and mauresmo in wimbledon. i rooted for amelie like i was her coach, mind you. i didn't want maria to win! and she didn't! she should have lost earlier in the 3rd set had she not won 2 games straight to make it to 4-2. well, she never won another game after that and lost 6-3,3-6,6-2.

i hope that today will pass as swiftly as the rest of the work week. i want to lie down in bed and turn up some smooth music while the rain splashes softly on my roof.

sunday splurge

i am a firm believer that if you want to save, don't go to the mall.

i thought yesterday was just going to be a typical sunday for me and my mom--lunch, window shopping, mass, window shopping,then dinner. but nooooo... we had lunch at oliver's, headed straight to essenses because i needed foot petals. i swear, these are the greatest friends of shoe lovers! i got haute heelz (supposedly, these are heel cushions but they can also be used to protect toes/toenails especially if you like wearing closed, pointed shoes), then shoe stopperz (which are anti-skid stick-ons to ensure you won't slip when there's rain), strappy strips (for my slingbacks), and killer kushionz (to protect your heel all the way to the ball of your foot, preventing toe scrunch). aaaaahhhh...i love them! not to mention that these products come in a variety of colors: rose, buttercup, silver rose, and black iris. as the tag line of the product goes: your feet don't have to suffer to be beautiful. so true. but i also say, beauty doesn't come cheap. for the things that i bought, i had to spend a little over P1,800. for girls who want more info, log on to www.footpetals.com

on the way to greenbelt, i saw a very pretty red nike workout top. and since i've irregularly gone to the gym over these past few months, i thought a new wardrobe would be enough motivation. i bought without fitting it. i'm so psyched!

my mom and i then went to beauty bar. we bought conditioner and a gift set (for ourselves) all from burt's bees. i love burt's bees products (go check www.burtsbees.com)! the good thing about our trip to beauty bar was that we convinced the salesladies that since we bought a lot yesterday and two sundays before that when in fact, our suki was really beauty bar shangri-la, they should give us some big token (of appreciation for our switching loyalties). and they did! i cannot believe that they gave us the diary they had people spending 10k in beauty products last year just to get it! good thing i didn't finish my stamps last year, otherwise i'd be lugi. my problem now is that i have 3 diaries and a pda. and i don't even have anything to do. go figure.

a few meters away from beauty bar stood nine west in its we-are-on-sale-glory. the thing is, i just bought shoes 3 weeks ago because all my other shoes gave up on me. i wasn't really planning on buying a new pair, what with my ralph lauren splurge last week. but then! i was eyeing this pair for all of a year and a half already, and there it was! in my size! at 70% off! can you believe it? it was screaming buy-me-mecki-i'm-only-P1395!!! well, as my mom put it, it would be injustice not to buy it. and so i did.

well, that ends my impulse buying sunday streak. i will leave all my bpi cards at home the next time. haha. i wish.

love means never having to say ________

back when i was 13 or 14, my boyfriend told me i didn't have to thank him for the "good deeds" he did for me like opening the car door, driving me home, helping me carry my things, etc. when i asked him why, he said that it was because these things were already expected of him as a boyfriend so i didn't have to thank him as i would a stranger or a friend. since i was younger than he was, and i didn't know any better, i happily played along. hey, it was fun to be pampered like that, you know. as i've always said, there's nothing like being with a perfect gentleman.

now, 10 years after, i am faced with some sort of righteous indignation at how sometimes, even when things are kind of already expected of you given the multiple roles you assume in life--daughter, girlfriend, friend, what have you, you never get the 'thank you' you deserve. and i mean not only in the verbal sense of being appreciated, but perhaps, in other manifestations of basic courtesy and gratitude.

of course, it's absurd to thank people for everything good they do for us, right? because if that were the case, we'd all constantly be thanking our mothers. however, i think what i'm trying to say is that sometimes, not all the time, we have to let people know or feel, that we appreciate their presence in our lives. i guess the need to feel dearly valued when you put so much of yourself out there is but an expression of the basic human condition--that there is a sense of brokenness in all of us, a constant tugging of the 'who we are' and the 'who we want to be.' i guess in the end, all we want is an affirmation that we, in all the roles we play, are making our own imprints in somebody else's life. i don't think that is too much to ask.

WHY?

i have recently hypothesized that some people have a natural nurturing instinct, while others just want to be looked after. some people always put another person first, while others just care about themselves. moreover, for those who only want to be taken care of, their number one consideration in finding a life partner is, undoubtedly, that person's ability to take care of them.

well, all i can say to those who just want to be taken care of is this: if you ever find somebody who will give an arm and a leg just to put you first, it might be to your advantage if you appreciated that person.

the thing is, even after all your good deeds, you aren't allowed even one outburst of pure, raw emotion stemming from a deeper and hidden desire to also be taken care of, in whatever small way possible. fat chance and tough luck, i say to you.

june musings

i feel like it's been such a long time since i last posted an entry here. my internet connection, though "unlimited," is so weird i can't connect at home.

anyway, so june. the first week marked the beginning of my stint here in Marketing. i like it here, though it seemed to me that they didn't know what to do with me at first. eventually, i found myself doing some stuff, menial they may be, but something to be preoccupied with for the time being nonetheless. the second week was spent entirely in UN for several trainings i attended by myself (meaning i was either with agents or other Philam group employees). i would never imagine that i would miss being in UN. i think i missed the CTDD girls in UN. aaaawwww... they're like sisters! now, on my third week, martin put me in charge of a forum to be held this saturday. so i guess, this is work already. not to mention that i'm also coordinating the new batch of mappers' immersion here this Friday, only because i'm the newbie here and everybody else has better things to do than coordinate with HR...hihi...but hey, i like being a pointperson, especially with the mappers. i have to get used to their calling me 'ate' though.

during the long weekend, i went to Batangas/Tagaytay with my boyfriend, his mom, and his sister. ah. i thought it was going to be horrible to spend a night with his sister. heck, i even imagined her suffocating me with a pillow the second i fell asleep, but as they say, look at the brighter side of things, and i guess she wasn't so bad at all. i'm not out to steal her precious brother, anyway. i think i already got him bad...hahaha

what else? hmmm... oh i know! i finally got to meet ve's new boy (she's going to kill me when she reads this...) he's nice, which is great news for my friend who's been to hell and back on her own doing. the four of us, my mom included, ate at max brenner's last sunday and when ve and i went to the washroom, he told my mom that he was surprised to find out that somebody as pretty as ve didn't have a boyfriend. ah..i wanted to smack him in the head. there are lots of women like that out there!!! i, myself, am wondering how these women end up being single for a long time. i remember saying before, whenever i saw somebody unattractive but attached (and most especially if she's fat, i know i'm bad, so sue me), "why does she have a boyfriend??!!" oh well, as i always tell myself, it's not all about beauty. there's also personality to speak of. however, the most baffling thing about this whole thing is that there are 'it' girls out there who are still unattached! some would say it's because these girls are intimidating and have high standards. oh well, i'm just grateful i have somebody i can drag to a cheezy chick flick when i want to.

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i can't believe it's going to be july next week. we're in the second half, so to speak. sometimes i wish time would breeze by as swiftly as possible, bringing me to some place i want to be. some state of mind, perhaps. but i guess time isn't the element i have to go against here. i don't know. i'm typing random thoughts. i never do that.

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i don't what else to blog about. there's really not much going on with me. it's a mundane existence of work and after-work. unless my life will turn "unexpectedly" one of these months... i wish this time it's for real.